Level Up!

Your Fire Controllman wants to learn the move, “CSOSS.”

Delete a move to make room for “CSOSS?”

>Yes

No

Which move will you delete to make room for “CSOSS?”

AN/SPY-1D Technician

3M

>Common Sense

Basic DC

Delete “Common Sense” for “CSOSS?”

And… POOF!

Your Fire Controllman forgot “Common Sense” and learned “CSOSS!”

:B

 

I don’t know where this little derp came from, but I’m keeping it.

Mature Decisions

It seems I’ve made a few today.

The first was gritting my teeth and doing as much of my maintenance today as possible. I got a lot done, I feel proud of the work I did, and I feel like I’m earning a little more respect in ER09.

The second was going off-ship for lunch. I know it seems like a small thing, but being able to leave for an hour to go grab lunch away from the people I work with on a daily basis was such a relief. I may have to do that more often.

I decided to try to keep away from my boyfriend today. It’s more because we both have work to do and I know that we’ll both just distract each other. This decision ended up being for the best because I had a lot of work to take care of. Plus, he’s been working all day and most of the night, so he needs sleep. Which is why, when he texted earlier, I told him that, as much as I’d like to see him, I think he should get some rest. We have the weekend coming up pretty soon, so him coming over right now doesn’t make any sense, you know?

But, yeah, today’s been pretty good. I might even go so far as to say it’s the best work day I’ve had all year.

Love y’all.

Keeper Points

Not that I’m a girl who thinks about things like that, but there are so many things about my guy right now that I’m just like, “I could seriously live with habits like those.”

I mean, we have some similar interests, but we’re also massively different. I mean, he has the self-confidence that I never could have, the wit and charm that I so obviously lack. But, somehow, we mesh well. And he thinks of all sorts of sweet things, things that no other guy has done for me. Like, yesterday morning, I left him at my place to go to duty and he cleaned my room. I mean, not a deep clean, but we’d made a pretty big mess and he straightened it all up and everything. He even rinsed all the dishes so they’d be easier for me to wash!

All I’m saying is, I think we’re really compatible. I’m not saying that evil “L” word or, worse still, the “M” word, but I genuinely like him as a person. Yeah, there are things that make me a little irate, but not things that could smother a relationship and certainly not things that are a turn-off. If I can make this work, if we can pull through these impossible odds, I think this could be the greatest thing to happen to me, relationship-wise. Maybe, with a little luck, one of the best things in my life.

But I’m getting way ahead of myself here.

Now, work. It’s been interesting so far. I think, after last weekend, things have gotten to the point where I need to stop trying to pop in and see him during the week. I mean, it’s not healthy.

And a bit overwhelming.

So, I’m going to spend tomorrow doing maintenance and immersing myself in work so that, when I get off work, I’m not tempted to go up all those flights of stairs just to stop by and say hi for a few minutes.

I thought I had more to write about than this, but, looks like I’m out of stuff for now. I’ll be updating regularly throughout the week.

With a little luck, that is.

An Update of Sorts

Because I’ve been absolutely terrible at making this a daily thing. My bad.

So, the cake pops went over great. When I made them, I used a little trick my dad taught me to make them stay moist longer (substituting two egg whites for an egg), so they were super delicious. I used boxed cake mix, so I can’t claim that 100%, but they were good. I used some sort of triple chocolate cake mix and topped it with melted white chocolate dyed pink.

Also, the boyfriend thing has been going amazingly well. I’m not going to ramble about it (even though I probably could), but I can tell you that I’m ridiculously happy with him right now and I hope it stays that way for a long time. He’s just the right blend of sweet and snarky for me.

Now, on to an update on Afterlife. This’ll be quick. There’s nothing new to report. No real progress, nothing of note to inform you of. I haven’t really been able to think about it lately. I’m not giving it up, though. I’m just taking a moment to reconsider some of my plot and what exactly I plan to do with it. I mean, it’s a great idea, in theory. It’s putting it down, making it more than just an abstract grouping of events and ideas that makes it tough, you know? Plus, I’ve had a bit of a healthy distraction lately.

Work’s been going all right, too. Shockingly. I’ve managed to finally show my boss that I do my maintenance right and that I’m not a complete piece of shit sailor. So, we get along now. Yay. Also, my equipment (my real job) is getting some work done next week and I’ll probably be living on the ship for that. Meaning, of course, that I won’t be able to update very often. It sucks, but it’s the only way I can stay in my gear without causing problems for both of my work centers. So, I’m going to be very sleep-deprived and overworked, but definitely thrilled to be in my gear again.

And… that’s it. Hope everyone had a lovely Valentine’s Day or Thursday or whatever it is you decided to call it!

Valentine’s Baking Experiment: SUCCESS!!

 

 

The Experiment

 

Oh my gosh, guys. I’m excited for tomorrow.

I made the above cake pop (and about 20 others) for my division for Valentine’s Day and I’m soooo excited to share them with everyone.

Oh, and that date of mine? Yeah, we’re, um, a thing right now. I really, really hope it works out… I like him a lot, guys. I really, really do.

And… Yeah, I planned to seriously update, but… the cake pops have made me sleepy. I’ll get back to y’all tomorrow…

Yaoi and Housework

I think there’s something wrong with the brains of yaoi fangirls. Like, something seriously wrong. I keep seeing borderline disturbing images of male characters in female lingerie. Which, you know, would be fine, if I didn’t already know those characters well enough to know that they wouldn’t in a million years wear women’s lingerie. Half the characters I’ve been seeing like this are, well, not particularly masculine, but definitely not the types to be in lingerie.

Also, I’ve been noticing that people don’t actually stop to think about mature content filters on dA. Like, there’s one of a character pulling down another’s underwear, about to go oral on him, and there was absolutely no filter. Like, I didn’t want to see that in my inbox. I joined the group for good fanart, not yaoi fanart. I mean, granted, the art was good. Just the content was kinda icky for me. And I don’t begrudge those who enjoy stuff like that, just please remember that there is censorship for a reason.

Aaaaand I have absolutely no decent transition from that to housework.

So, how ’bout them dishes?

No, but seriously, I feel proud of myself. I got a decent amount of housework done and even went out and bought my *digital* copy of Fire Emblem: Awakening. Which I can’t download yet, but I’ll refrain from ranting about that for now. Basically, routers suck.

The best part is that my room will be in pretty decent shape when my, er, “date” comes over. I just don’t want anyone thinking I’m a slob, you know? Like, I have  a pretty decently clean room anyway, but little things like dirty laundry on the floor and my unmade bed (that I’m sleeping in tonight so that really doesn’t do anything at all) were irking me. Oh, and dishes are done, I need to clean the bathroom a bit, but that’s all quick fix stuff, you know?

Anyway, yeah, that’s about the extent of my day.

Oh, wait. I added some color to my usually monochrome wardrobe. I feel spiffy.

Keeping It Short

It’s already late here, so I’m going to just go over some of the major things that happened.

Nothing. Today was blissfully boring.

I can only hope tomorrow’s just as pleasant. It’d be a great end to a great week. I mean, I got my work done by Tuesday, managed to get by without any massive fights with the DCPO Work Center Supervisor, survived ATG’s attack on my gear, and even managed to fix some stuff.

There was one major thing to happen, though. I’ve been talking with the chaplain that’s been coming every week, just to get stuff off my chest and everything and, well, he started pushing the whole religious side. The thing is, the way he explained how he saw it, it made sense to me. But there’s still a massive fear of being involved in a church, setting aside time to read the Bible, making that sort of thing a habit, and, most importantly, trusting God to take care of me.

I don’t trust anyone to take care of me; I take care of myself. I mean, you can see what a bang-up job I’ve been doing lately, but I really do feel like I can’t trust anyone. The world is filled with selfish people who will screw you over just to get a slight advantage over a handful of other people. I’ve had that happen to me so many times, I don’t even want to give someone the chance. And, yes, that’s one of the main reasons I’m still scared by my “date” on Sunday. I don’t want to open up to this guy and have my heart shattered again. I couldn’t do it.

But, back to the matter at hand.

I know that God is above human pettiness and doesn’t stand to gain a thing by making me miserable, but I just can’t bring myself to let go of everything that brings me down. Sometimes, it feels like that’s all I have to hold onto, you know? Even if it’s the anchor that’s dragging me down to the bottom of the ocean, if I can’t swim, that anchor is the only thing I have to hold onto.

Wow. So much for keeping it short.

Anyway, yeah, I’ve just been thinking about it. Maybe. But, I don’t see it being something that’ll be happening anytime soon.

Letting go and taking help from someone I can’t see and whose presence I can barely feel isn’t, well, very feasible for me right now.